And the adjusting begins…

Today marked my fourth full day as a Pennsylvania resident…the fourth day that I have lived here, slept here, hung out with friends here, started a new life here.Β Yesterday, I finally began hanging things on my walls, which made this feel real for the first time. Today, I went to church at a church I have always admired and appreciated, but left realizing that I will never find a worship team like the one I had in Glendora. It’s the little things that are starting to hit me…the little things that are making this real.

Every day I have to remind myself that I actually live here–it still feels like a dream, since it’s something that I have wanted for so long. And I’m so glad to be here! But, I do miss the people in Glendora…the worship team…the comfort.

And that’s what it all comes down to, I think: comfort. I lived in Azusa/Glendora for seven years, and it became comfortable. I was content in many ways. However, last December I began to pray that God would take that comfort away so that I could grow, so that I could continue to become more like Jesus. I haven’t regretted that prayer for one second.Β It hasn’t been an easy eight months, but it has been so worthwhile! Look at where the Lord has led me!

I know that the Lord has incredible things in store for me here–and I am ready for the challenges that I will face. Just knowing that His hand clearly led me here is enough to give me the peace to face tomorrow–even though I’m quite uncomfortable right now. πŸ™‚

PS–I have an interview tomorrow morning–please pray that all goes well, and that I get the job, even though it’s just part-time, and it’s not something I’d keep for long. I have bills to pay πŸ™‚

Isaiah 58 and other thoughts…

It’s been an interesting week…I said my first “good-bye” yesterday, and it hit me harder than I expected. I know that I will still keep in touch with these loved ones…and it’s not the first time that I have left for an extended period of time–but it is the first time I’ve actually had to say “good-bye” not knowing when I will be back…not knowing when I will see them again. I had planned on doing some sort of temp-work while I was here, but I have realized that the most important thing I can do right now is spend time with these people I love so dearly.

Yesterday, I received a letter from myself that was written in February, at our retreat for the APU mission teams. It was interesting to read my prayers for our team at that time, and to see how God answered those prayers. At the bottom of my letter I wrote *Isaiah 58*, as that was a passage I pondered greatly during that retreat. I re-read it yesterday and was yet again struck by these powerful words:

‘For day after day they seek me out; they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them. “Why have we fasted,” they say, “and you have not seen it? Why have we humbled ourselves, and you have not noticed?”…

You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high…Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter–when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?

Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I. If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose water never fail.”

Isaiah 58: 2-11

Wow…how beautiful and how powerful…THIS is why we were made–to serve those God places in our path and to love them like He loves them. This is how I want to spend my life, without a doubt. There’s simply no better way…much to ponder… πŸ™‚

Saying good-bye, and other things…

Today was the first of many good-byes to be said in the coming months…my parents came down this weekend to pick up my old car (as I am buying one from my aunt and uncle), to help me pack stuff to ship to PA, and to take my rabbit home with them… 😦 I have had Casey since August 2005, and I love that rabbit! He’s been such a faithful companion, and I am going to miss having him around. I am so thankful that my parents were willing to take him with them, even though my Dad wasn’t too excited about it πŸ™‚ At least I know he’ll be cared for and loved!

I know that it’s going to get worse as the next 71 days come and go. So many goodbyes, so many memories…

People have commented that it seems like I’m not sad at all to leave Glendora, to leave Southern California. But what they don’t understand is that I can’t be sad yet. There are too many logistics to arrange to move cross-country, too many details to focus on…a mission trip to lead (in 20 days!)…I just can’t think about the good-byes. When I get back from New Orleans, I will allow myself to be sad, to reminisce…

In other news…I have 14 days of work left. 14. What an amazing number! I have had great experiences during my time at ADP (two years), but I am ready for a new challenge. And I cannot wait to see what God has in store for me in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania!

There has just been too much going on for me to focus on blogging lately, but I’ll try to be more consistent in the coming weeks. We will have a blog for our New Orleans team, and I will post the link on here so that you can read about our adventures!

Back to packing, etc… πŸ™‚

Big Decision…

 

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Well, I have officially decided that I am moving to Pennsylvania…this is a decision that I’ve been thinking about for nearly 6 years, and especially in the past six months (since I went there in October)…

And I have decided that this is what I’m going to do! The Lord has opened some doors that I can’t deny, and I’m going to go for it. πŸ™‚

I’m VERY excited!

Keith Urban and other things…

 

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I LOVE Keith Urban…it was my second concert, and it was just as amazing as the first one, two years ago. πŸ™‚

I took 552 pictures, but only kept 60. I’m not good at taking pictures at concerts yet πŸ™‚ See them here.

We didn’t get home from the concert until 12:30am, and I had to get up at 6am. That was fun. πŸ™‚ I’m still functioning, but probably not for long. πŸ™‚

I’m almost done with “Three Cups of Tea”, and it has really impacted me. I highly recommend it!

Nothing else really…I’m applying to jobs in Pennsylvania, and it looks like I’ll be moving in July/August. I’m at a point in my life where I have to make decisions, and I’m ready for a change in scenery. πŸ™‚ So, that’s my plan.Β  Not sure what the Lord’s plan is yet–but I really feel like He has shown me that there isn’t a “right” or “wrong” decision to make here…stay in SoCal or go to PA. Either way is fine. πŸ™‚

Laura tagged me, so here’s my randomness:

Β The rules–

1. Link to the person who tagged you.
2.Post the rules.
3. Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4. Tag at least 3 people.
5.Make sure the people you tagged know you tagged them by commenting to them.

I tag Heatherly, Heather, and Aunt Lori…Β 

1. If I could have any career (and morality was not an issue), I would be Danny Ocean. That’s all I need to say. πŸ™‚

2. I love ketchup. More specifically, Heinz Ketchup. I went all the way to Pittsburgh in 2003 JUST to go to the Heinz Factory. Β 

3. I really hate moving…yet, I’m most likely making the biggest move (distance-wise) in my life thus far this summer…

4. My favorite color used to be orange in junior high…then it became popular, so I stopped wearing it (as much). I’ve always been one to not do what everyone else is doing. And I like it that way. πŸ™‚ Same reason why I haven’t seen “Lord of the Rings”. No interest because of the obsession that has swept the world.

5. I love to sleep on planes. Most of the time, I’m asleep by the time the plane starts moving. πŸ™‚ That’s why my red-eye in two weeks doesn’t scare me. I’ll sleep VERY well.

6. I really hate being told what to do. This is nothing new to my parents. I guess it is actually more of a hate of being micromanaged. If I know what needs to be done, let me do it my way. πŸ™‚ Β 

I’m exhausted…time to relax πŸ™‚