I Hate Krabbe

Rarely does a day go by where I am not brought to tears because of the realities of Krabbe and the destruction it brings to its innocent victims – my own daughter included in those ranks.

I remember my grandmother telling me to never use the word hate because it meant that you wished someone/something didn’t exist. 

I definitely think hate is the appropriate word for how I feel about Krabbe.

I think what I hate the most is the fact that you have no idea that anything is wrong with your child for a long time. 

You think your baby is developing normally, they are happy, and then all of a sudden it goes away. The pain sets in, your child is miserable, and you will never see them smiling again.

Krabbe is terrible because it is both a sudden change and a long progression before death.

Our Tori was taken from us within one week. ONE WEEK. And we had NO idea what was happening.

Everything was explainable with a theory. Growth spurt. Teething. Reflux. Hydrocephalus. 

Nope. None of the above.

I think what I hate the most is that the first things it took from her/us was her smile, her laugh, her voice. Her personality. Her.

It has been a rough two days as she continues to struggle to swallow, and as she continues to throw up small amounts through her mouth despite the Nissen procedure. I have had to suction her many times this morning so that she didn’t aspirate or choke on her own saliva and phlegm.

This disease sucks.

I don’t know how we are going to get through the rest of her life if this disease continues to get worse. 

The fear that surrounds us grows daily as we are now afraid to leave her unattended for any length of time. Even sleep was difficult last night because I was afraid that I wouldn’t hear her coughing in time to suction her.

Krabbe sucks. And the fact that over forty states do not screen for this at birth is infuriating. No child or parent should have to go through this. No one.

Please pray for Tori…pray that she will swallow and not aspirate, that she would be comfortable and not in any pain. 

Please pray for Brennan and me…for wisdom, calm hearts, and patience.

And please contact your state representatives and senators about adding Krabbe to the Newborn Screening Tests. 

This disease must be stopped.

5 thoughts on “I Hate Krabbe

  1. I was brought to tears from your post. As a complete stranger it is heartbreaking to me, no parent should have to watch their baby go thru something like this. So many prayers for Tori!!!, your family is in my thoughts and prayers daily-multiple times.

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  2. Makes me cry. I’m so sorry that you have to go through this with sweet Tori. I admire your faith and hope in Jesus. He is still there, but this disease still really sucks!

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  3. So sorry about how HARD this is! I agree with you IT SUCKS! There are times in life when you just got to say that! Praying for God to wrap YOU all in HIS arms of LOVE and hold you tightl! Let HIM wipe your tears and continued prayers for Tori’s healing!

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  4. I am so sorry, Michelle is my granddaughter and she told me about this little girl and I am praying a lot for her and also you as the parents and the grandparents. I hate this disease. It is slow torture. I am so sorry this happens to innocent children.

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