Tori didn’t eat very much today, so I called the pediatrician around 2:30pm to ask what we should do. Given the concerns about her head, he advised us to go to the ER at Hershey Medical Center and to press them to do an MRI.
So we headed out as soon as Brennan got home. We arrived around 3:15pm.
The nurses and doctors were impressed with how much information I was able to give them and said that many times parents aren’t able to recount things. That surprised me because it is my job as her mother to be attentive and I assumed that all parents would notice changes in their child’s health.
Once we got a room we waited for a bit until two different doctors came in to see her. After hearing her medical history and reviewing what Tori’s pediatrician sent over, they advised a CT scan. She did not have to be sedated for that as she would be for an MRI. It took less than 5 minutes total and she did well.
Then we waited. And waited. And waited. Thankfully we were in our own room and could relax.
A very sweet friend from Texas noticed that I had commented about bringing a charger for my phone but not enough snacks and she had a pizza delivered to us. We were so thankful for that! We were so hungry…
Around 7pm, the doctor came back in and told us that the scan had been read, and that while there was no fluid on the brain, there were brain abnormalities. She said that the neurologist would be able to tell us more on Tuesday, but that she couldn’t really provide any additional insight.
Tears started streaming down my face as my mind raced to try to figure out what that could mean. Will she be disabled? Is she going to live? Is it nothing to worry about? You always know it could be bad when they don’t say “it will be fine!”
Brennan and I say in silence and cried for a long time. Then we prayed and cried some more. We held Tori tightly and watched her sleep.
We wanted answers, but this vagueness is wreaking havoc on our hearts.
We are home now and trying to distract ourselves. My mom is flying in on Sunday morning. We ate ice cream and are watching The Office. Oh, and I worked on our taxes. Distractions.
I called the neurologist on the way home and left a message, telling them that we had a CT scan and what it said. I asked them to try to see us on Monday.
Now that we have grieved the unknown future, we are trusting the God who knows all…the God who loves Tori and created her and has great plans for her.
We are so overwhelmed by the love and support we are receiving from friends around the world. Over 1,200 people read my previous post…absolutely amazing. Thank you, from the bottom of our hearts. ❤️
Please pray for Tori. Pray that this is something simple and easily fixed. The thought that our baby might never be the same again is heartbreaking.
We will keep you posted.