Jesus –
As I sit and rock this precious baby, I am reminded of all you have done in our lives to bring us to this moment.
You brought me to Pennsylvania twice to serve as a “summer missionary” and helped me fall in love with the area…
…you established friendships for me here that would bring me back four years later for two weddings – a trip that renewed my love for the state…
…you put a fire in my soul so that I would move here nine months later…
…you led me to East Shore Baptist Church, so that, among other things, I would eventually meet Brennan, nine months later…
…you created us to be perfect for each other, and we got married…
…you allowed us to grow even closer together as we tried and tried for nearly two years to conceive…
…you created beautiful Victoria in your perfect timing and gave her to us as a joyful blessing…
And here we are, a family.
Jesus – we know that you work all things together for your plan and purposes (Romans 8:28). We know that you love us more than we can even begin to imagine.
Lord Jesus – our hearts are broken and we are weary. Our precious baby girl is hurting and there are so many unknowns.
But we know that YOU know exactly what is wrong. You know the path that we must take in order to bring her back to good health. And we know that you alone know the future you have in store for Tori.
We are trusting you fully with this unknown future because you have proved yourself to be faithful to us time and time again, and we know that you are sovereign. We know that you are good. We know that you love Tori more than we ever could – and we certainly love her SO much.
Lord, let the MRI show exactly what is wrong. Allow it to show the neurosurgeon exactly what he needs to see in order to plan for treatment. Jesus, please create scheduling openings so that she can be treated this week if at all possible.
Please help Tori cope with the effects of the anesthesia tomorrow and bring her comfort throughout this process. Ease her pain tomorrow to make it all less scary for her.
Please heal our little girl. Please bring back our happy, developing, playful girl.
And most of all, please use this for your glory. We know this isn’t happening for nothing – whatever your plan is, we trust it.
Jesus, I am so weary and worn, and most days I feel like I just can’t handle this anymore because watching her suffer is excruciating. I am weak, but i know you are strong.
I know that you are there, that you understand, and that is enough.
Please, heal Tori.
Even So, Joy 
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