Category: Life as we know it

I feel loved…

When I got out of class today, I noticed that I had a missed call. I didn’t recognize the number. I listened to the message, and it was my church’s secretary. She said that she had a surprise for me waiting in her office…so I said I’d be by in 15 minutes.

When I arrived, she handed me a huge bag, filled with stuff. I was really curious now, because I had NO idea what this could be.

Someone in the church wanted to show me that I was loved, and wanted to encourage me, so they went and got me a bunch of gift certificates, as well as some really nice clothes, just because. I was shocked. I am not “in need” by any means, so I know that this is purely someone (who wishes to remain anonymous) showing their appreciation for me…and I am so humbled!

It is times like this that I realize that the Lord really does look out for us. This week was really tough, I felt really alone and discouraged…and then my roommates left me the sweet poster…and I got the printer from my parents yesterday…and now I have some awesome new clothes and shoes (and gift certificates) from someone who wanted to encourage me. God has really shown His love in unique ways this week, and I am so thankful. My church has blessed me so much over the past 2.5 years, but never like this, and I really don’t know what to say!

Humorous note: the two pairs of shoes are the right size, but the clothes aren’t–they are about 4 sizes too small. But I’m glad that whoever did this thought that I was smaller than I am, rather than larger than I am! 🙂 So I am going to go to the store from which they were purchased today and exchange them for things that fit me. 🙂 That makes me smile.

Anyway, things are better now. I feel loved…which has definitely been needed in the midst of the stress that school brings.

Good day…

Today was a fairly good day…Here are the highlights.

I woke up to find a sweet note (more like a poster) of encouragement from my roommates on the bathroom mirror…it was definitely needed, and helped me to start my day off right. I’ve been so stressed out and overwhelmed lately, and my roommates have had to put up with a lot–mainly my silence and my seclusion in the world of homework. 🙂 Thanks girls!

1–my interview for Tunisia went really well. The Lord gave me the clarity that I needed, and helped me to formulate coherent responses to the questions I was asked. I really clicked with the three leaders and we had a great time. December 10th I will know if I will be spending four weeks in Northern Africa–and I am going to celebrate by going to a Tunisian restaurant with my friends. 🙂

2–my parents surprised me by having a new printer sent to me. I checked my mail and found a notice for a large package…and there was a brand-new printer (which I have needed, since my old printer will not work with my new computer)…my parents are awesome–always providing for me.

3–I got quite a bit of research done on Wahhabi Islam for my papers. I am fascinated by this research, in part because I have learned tonight that Americans in general have a completely wrong idea about why bin Laden is the way he is (I had the wrong idea as well until tonight, when I learned more about him and the way that he has gone off the deep end, basically)…perhaps I’ll extrapolate upon that at another time.

4–My new checks came today. I am proud to be the owner of NASCAR checks! Woo hoo! 🙂 (I know that a few of my readers adamantly oppose NASCAR, but I don’t really care). Fun stuff!

For now, I am going to bed. It’s much later than I had wanted to be up, but that’s okay. 🙂 Goodnight!

Poem…

Right now, this is really the only way to express how I am feeling right now…I’m just so tired, so worn…



This is a poem that I wrote this summer, and I needed to be reminded of it’s message tonight. I thought I’d share it with the world once more…





There are twists and turns on this path I tread

With little notice of what lies ahead.

But, I will follow and I will seek

For You are strongest when I am weak.



Unexpected crossroads, I must make a choice

I wait, I listen for Your still, small voice.

Some paths cross, some diverge

I cannot merely follow an inclination or urge.

I must look to You, and You alone

For You will guide me, wherever I roam.



Alpha, Omega; Lord of my life

Through every hardship, through every strife.

Through every victory and every defeat

Through times of joy, when I feel complete.

I know I can trust You to light my way;

Then why do I struggle, argue and sway?

Why do I question Your perfect plan

The power of the Great ‘I AM’?



Oh, Lord Almighty, lead me on.

This road is narrow, windy, and long.

I am weary, tired and worn

From the endless distractions and storms.

You are the Lord of my entire being,

Not merely my advisor, or Lord of some things.



I know not the direction or the length of this road

Only the Maker whose hand I hold.

You created the stars, the seasons, the light

Still You hear every thought, every laugh, every plight.

How wondrous You are; such a mystery

That the Creator of the Universe cares deeply for me.



Help me to ponder this great thought each day:

You will never stop loving, or leading my way.

Though I often wander, stumble and fall,

Your love is with me, through it all.

Lesa Close

July 26, 2004

Tunisia…

So, tomorrow is my interview for the mission team to Tunisia…and I’m only a bit anxious because I really want to go. The more I learn about the country and the people, the more my heart is open to going and to completely leaving my comfort zone. I was reading about Tunisian cuisine today, and that was especially “scary” (if you know me, you know that I am NOT adventurous when it comes to trying new things)…but I found a Tunisian restaurant in West L.A. that I will try out upon acceptance onto the team. We don’t find out until December 10th–which I suppose is good ONLY because if I knew I was going before then, I would be completely preoccupied with that.

I ask that you say a prayer for me tomorrow, 3pm PST, as I interview for a position on this team. I am so excited!

Also…

Happy Birthday Cheyenne!!



My Pennsylvania sister is 21 today!! Have a wonderful birthday, and know that I love you!!

Back to writing…SO many papers to write, so little time…

Thoughts…

I’ve been purposely avoiding posting anything of a “personal” nature lately, and that has been for a few reasons. One is that I have been dealing with so many things lately that I haven’t been able to sort through anything, really. And two, I just haven’t felt inspired to blog as I have in the past. I have been thinking about many things, many people that I have mentioned previously…but I just don’t know how to express my emotions, my thoughts…so for now I am remaining silent.

I am the kind of person who will take on too much, because I feel that, in some instances, if I don’t do it then it won’t get done…I am finding myself feeling like I have done it again, but it isn’t with any extra stuff, persay. I am noticing that my school, work and church activities are wearing me out…but what would I cut out? Church? Right…school? In 181 days…Work? Need the money too much…

So, for now, I am just resting as much as I can (like today, where I read/took naps on the couch all afternoon), so that my body can keep up with all that I am involved in…I’m just worn out, in every area of my life…and I feel like I have to schedule even getting sick! I feel like I may be on the verge of being sick, so I am trying to hold it off until Thanksgiving weekend, when I can be sick for three days, LOL…

Alright, enough for now…back to my missions application…

Another Article…

I am not quite sure why I am posting these links so often as of late, but I find these articles to be fascinating…and thought my readers might as well. So, here’s another one. 🙂

http://www.nytimes.com/2004/11/06/opinion/06brooks.html

Also, my friend Stuart posted this county map of the U.S. and I was amazed by it…my county is red (well, my home county, not the one I vote in…Los Angeles county is always blue)…and it is so interesting to me to look at the blue counties, because I can, for the most part, figure out why they are blue. So interesting…

Note…

Just wanted to note quickly that my blog has now had the same number of hits as the population of my hometown (13,000)…amazing, LOL! Nah, Red Bluff is growing like crazy, and in actuality has more like 27,000 now. 🙂

Engagement party was beautiful–will post pictures later…

Another Great Article…

This article was especially enjoyable, as it discusses the failed attempts of the Democratic party in several areas throughout this campaign season…so true.

This is not me saying that the Republican party made NO errors…this is not me being overly partisan or anything. This is simply me, posting a link to an article that I feel makes perfect sense. The democrats tried many new ways to get people to go to their side, and they just didn’t work.

*I feel that I have to post disclaimers now, so that people won’t misunderstand my intent or read into what I have written. It has been done as recently as yesterday, and I really don’t have the patience to deal with it. So, there’s my disclaimer.

Article of Interest…

Every once in a while I find an article that I really enjoy–this is one of those. I not only enjoy the content, but also the people they quoted: my former “employer” (it was an internship) former Speaker Newt Gingrich, and Grover Norquist–who I met at one of his meetings (“Grover’s Corner”–where top conservatives get together and give inside information on various things…it was awesome!).

Anyway, it’s long, but worth the read!





Electoral Affirmation of Shared Values Provides Bush a Majority

By TODD S. PURDUM

New York Times

11/04/04

It was not a landslide, or a re-alignment, or even a seismic shock. But it was decisive, and it is impossible to read President Bush’s re-election with larger Republican majorities in both houses of Congress as anything other than the clearest confirmation yet that this is a center-right country – divided yes, but with an undisputed majority united behind his leadership.

Surveys of voters leaving the polls found that a majority believed the national economy was not so good, that tax cuts had done nothing to help it and that the war in Iraq had jeopardized national security. But fully one-fifth of voters said they cared most about “moral values” – as many as cared about terrorism and the economy – and 8 in 10 of them chose Mr. Bush.

In other words, while Mr. Bush remains a polarizing figure on both coasts and in big cities, he has proved himself a galvanizing one in the broad geographic and political center of the country. He increased his share of the vote among women, Hispanics, older voters and even city dwellers significantly from 2000, made slight gains among Catholics and Jews and turned what was then a 500,000-popular-vote defeat into a 3.6 million-popular-vote victory on Tuesday.

The president’s chief strategist, Matthew Dowd, released a memorandum yesterday noting that Mr. Bush had become the first incumbent Republican president to win a presidential race with majorities in the House and Senate since Calvin Coolidge in 1924, and the first president of either party since Franklin D. Roosevelt in 1936 to be re-elected while gaining seats in both houses.

“I think that there’s a great deal of evidence that the American people support this president,” said Ralph Reed, the former Christian Coalition leader who was Southeast regional coordinator of the Bush campaign this year. “There is a wide swath of voters, not just in the South but in the heartland of the country, that no longer feels that the Democratic Party speaks for them or their values, and that is a serious impediment to the Democrats in a campaign like we have just been through.”

From state capitals to Capitol Hill, the Republicans made gains on Tuesday. Eleven state ballot initiatives to ban same-sex marriage passed easily, even in laid-back, live-and-let-live Oregon, and apparently inspired turnout that helped Mr. Bush. William J. Bennett, the former education secretary who has crusaded for moral values, noted in National Review Online that it was Ohio, which may well have lost more jobs under Mr. Bush than any other state, that gave him his electoral vote victory.

The former House Speaker Newt Gingrich, who led the charge that produced a Republican Congress 10 years ago this month, said: “I think all of the major themes of this president fit very much into the concept of a center-right governing majority. If you think about John Kerry goose-hunter, and John Kerry altar boy and John Kerry defender of America, he understood at some pretty profound level that you could not move out of the center-right and win.”

Mr. Gingrich added of Mr. Kerry: “Look, I think he did the best he could. I think he actually overperformed his natural vote by four or five percentage points. You have to give him some real credit.”

All along, Mr. Bush’s political guru, Karl Rove, had argued that if Mr. Bush could turn out millions of conservatives and evangelical Christians who stayed home four years ago, he could win, aided also by population shifts that added electoral votes to the Sun Belt states in which the president ran strong both times.

Vice President Dick Cheney, as he introduced Mr. Bush at a victory rally in Washington yesterday afternoon, said that his boss had already had “a consequential presidency,” and that voters had been inspired by his “clear agenda.”

The biggest questions now may be about just what parts of that agenda Mr. Bush will choose to pursue, and just how many fights he will take on with either his liberal opponents or his conservative supporters.

Will Mr. Bush move to create private investment accounts for Social Security, a move that would follow through on an idea he first broached four years ago, gratify free-market ideologues but discomfit fiscal conservatives worried about how he would pay for them and practical politicians fearful of simply touching such a hot issue? Will he pick confirmation fights over anti-abortion judges, or press for a constitutional amendment to ban same-sex marriage? Or neither? Or both?

Yesterday, Mr. Bush sounded a conciliatory note. “A new term is a new opportunity to reach out to the whole nation,” he said. “We have one country, one Constitution, and one future that binds us.” Mr. Cheney’s daughter Mary and her longtime partner, Heather Poe, appeared together at the victory rally.

The power of second-term presidents tends to dissipate quickly and Mr. Bush’s will be limited at the outset because he will still be five Republican votes shy of the 60 needed in the Senate to stop a Democratic filibuster.

Senator Arlen Specter, the moderate Pennsylvania Republican expected to head the Judiciary Committee, warned Mr. Bush yesterday against nominating judges “who would change the right of a woman to choose, overturn Roe v. Wade.”

James A. Thurber, director of the Center for Congressional and Presidential Studies at American University, said that for all the Republican gains, “the other story is that the nation is deadlocked, especially in the Senate, over what the most important issues are and how we deal with them.”

But Grover Norquist, president of the conservative group Americans for Tax Reform, said that the Republican Party was no longer what it was 25 or 30 years ago, “a collection of people running on their own.” Instead, Mr. Norquist said, “there is a coherent vision, and to a large extent voters can tell that Republicans are not going to raise their taxes, are for tort reform, are for free trade.”

He said that without the drag of the war in Iraq, Mr. Bush would probably have rolled up a bigger majority.

As it is, Mr. Bush became the first presidential candidate to win more than 50 percent of the popular vote since his father did so in 1988, and he received a higher percentage of the popular vote than any Democratic candidate since Lyndon B. Johnson in 1964.

All those are daunting numbers for the Democrats. Early in his campaign, Mr. Kerry drew fire for musing aloud that the Democrats could win the White House without the South.

Yet for all of their hope that the Southwest could be their new ticket, Democrats were left with the fact that in the past 28 years, only Jimmy Carter and Bill Clinton among their ranks have made it, and both had Southern and evangelical support. Mr. Kerry, a lifelong Roman Catholic, often struggled this year to speak of his faith in public.

“Bill Clinton and Jimmy Carter got elected because they were comfortable with their faith,” said Representative Rahm Emanuel of Illinois, a former Clinton aide. “What happened was that a part of the electorate came open to what Clinton and Carter had to say on everything else – health care, the environment, whatever – because they were very comfortable that Clinton and Carter did not disdain the way these people lived their lives, but respected them.”

He added: “We need a nominee and a party that is comfortable with faith and values. And if we have one, then all the hard work we’ve done on Social Security or America’s place in the world or college education can be heard. But people aren’t going to hear what we say until they know that we don’t approach them as Margaret Mead would an anthropological experiment.”