A very wise woman…

Lately I have been reading a lot, and it has been a wonderful experience. Last night I read the first half of Elisabeth Elliot’s book “Passion and Purity”–and it is NOT as horrible as it sounds! πŸ™‚

It is the story of her relationship with Jim Elliot, one of my personal heroes, and about the incredible waiting she had to do before God led them to a marriage relationship. Since I have been single for about 6 years now, I can empathize completely!

Let me just say that this woman is one of the wisest women I have ever read…this book is speaking to my heart in SO many ways! I will post some quotes later from this book, but God is using this book in great ways in my life right now. I love when that happens!

LA is currently in the middle of what is typically known as “June Gloom”…yesterday was the first sunny day we have had in two weeks. Amazing, LOL. It is overcast and cool today–and I LOVE it! Perfect weather to curl up with a good book and a warm blanket, while sipping hot chocolate (my latest liquid “obsession”…last month it was apple juice, and before that lemonade)…

Advice for the day: Read Elisabeth Elliot if you ever have the opportunity–both men and women! πŸ™‚

Sad News…

I think my graduating class (High School) is cursed or something…I just found out that a young man that I have known since at least 2nd grade was killed Tuesday night in a horrible motorcycle accident. Here’s an article about it. This makes 4 or 5 deaths and 1 suicide for Red Bluff High’s Class of 2001…so sad! 😦

California’s Business Climate and Fiscal Crisis

Alright–it’s time to delve into the policy of California once more…actually, probably for the first time on this blog.

The state of California has had a rough going for the past 5-6 years, largely due to financial mismanagement at the highest level (former Governor Gray Davis). The economy has suffered, and businesses–especially smaller ones–have fled from California because of the incredibly high tax hikes and other factors that made the business climate in California unfavorable.

One of these factors was the minimum wage increase of 2001. This increase was detrimental to small business owners, primarily, and has caused a great deal of turmoil in the state’s economy. (Even though I benefit from that increase, I still do not approve of it because of what it has done to the state.) The reasons given for raising the wage were often illogical when examined: One, for example, said that due to the ever-increasing cost of living in this state, wages had to be raised. Okay, that makes sense on the surface…but when you evaluate this, it is not logical. By raising the minimum wage, businesses have to pay their workers more, which usually means that they have to raise the prices of their goods or service. Therefore, though the wage is increased, the costs have also increased, making it just as bad as it was before.

According to a study done by the California Chamber of Commerce,

81% rate business conditions in California as worse than they were two years ago, an increase of fourteen points since the 2001 survey.

65% believe that business conditions in their industry or field have become worse in the last two years.

53% percent say conditions for their company have gotten worse.

Also, in regards to relocation:

15% of respondents say they have been approached by other states to expand or relocate out of state.

51% of those who were approached were offered monetary or other incentives to relocate.

Of those, 37% were offered a more favorable tax structure in the new location.

California currently has a budget deficit of approximately $21 billion dollars…and though Governor Schwartzenegger has done a tremendous job already in balancing the budget and making necessary cuts, the state is still no where near being in the clear.

Why do I mention all this? The State Assembly just passed a bill to increase minimum wage once more…making it $7.75 by January 2006 (it is a two phase raise, just like the last one). WHAT?! Why on earth would you do such a thing right now, when the economy is just beginning to stabilize in California? Businesses can barely afford to do business here as it is, and I thought that the idea was to attract businesses to come to California, not drive them away!

This bill is expected to pass the Senate next week, and then it will be up to Gov. Arnold.

At least we have a governor now who isn’t putting up with garbage. He currently has a higher approval rating than when he was first elected, and this 65% approval rating is the highest of any governor in the past 45 years! He is approved by both Republicans and Democrats, and most say that they feel like they can “understand” Arnold and what he is doing–which is more than anyone could say for Gray Davis. Arnold is beginning to bring the real meaning of politics back to Sacramento: he is serving the people and meeting their needs.

Anyway, I felt this urge to delve into one of my many qualms with California, and I’d love to hear your comments or questions, as always. This state may be the “Golden State”, but it is definitely not shining.

Life isn’t perfect…

Sometimes, because of my optimistic tendencies, it may appear that my life is perfect, that nothing is wrong, and that I don’t have any problems. And, for the most part, my life has thankfully not been filled with huge difficulties or problems in the past year or so…but that doesn’t mean that there aren’t little things that bother me or upset me.

Currently, I am going through a time of growth, for lack of a better explanation…things that have happened, things that I have learned or experienced in the past year are all culminating and I am overwhelmed with trying to sort through this mass of things that have seemingly been “heaped” upon me all at once…it’s rough, but we all go through these times.

Last night I decided to make a list of “Things that don’t make me smile” (which I will not post here) and the more I wrote, the more things came to mind. It intrigued me…

A good friend called me last night, unexpectedly, and the conversation that we had was more helpful than I had ever imagined. I hadn’t talked to this friend in a while, and as we talked I realized that things were as they used to be…this was the friend that I know and love…and it filled my heart with joy, even as we were discussing difficult things…

He reminded me that it’s okay to have bad days, it’s okay to be pessimistic once in a while, because we need to make sure to evaluate things realistically–otherwise we can end up going crazy. He told me, as he has in the past, that sometimes I forget that it’s okay to lean on other people–because usually people lean on me and come to me for encouragement and support, and I tend to push my own needs aside in order to help others. It’s okay to need to be encouraged–and I definitely know that is true.

I have long pushed aside a few things that I never wanted to deal with–and I never planned on dealing with–and I am realizing now that I need to handle these things…I need to heal completely, otherwise I cannot move past these things.

Growing is never easy, and I believe that the Lord is using these things to strengthen me, to cause me to grow in my faith, and to grow closer to Him. I just wanted to be honest with my blog readers about my “imperfect” life, as it may appear to be a little too perfect most of the time πŸ™‚

“And You know the plans You have for me, and You can’t plan the end and not plan the means…so I suppose I just need some peace just to get me to sleep…”

–Caedmon’s Call

Simple things that can bring such joy…

There are things in life that, even though they seem small, can bring a smile to your face, a lift to your spirits, joy to your heart.

Last night, as I sat watching SeinfeldΒ (Scott has me watching this now), I decided to put on socks because it was cold…if you know me, you know that I hate socks and shoes, and prefer to go barefoot or wear flip-flops all the time.

When I put the warm, soft socks on my cold feet, I realized how good it felt…and it made me smile. I know, I know, this is something that you’re probably thinking is really weird, but it made me think about all the little things that can make me smile…

Warm socks on cold feetpicnics by the lakeexperiencing historysunsetsbeautiful, lush gardensdirt between my fingers after gardeningsingingdaisiesmaking others smiletravelinghot chocolatecloudy days when I don’t have to go anywherebabiesa letter in my mailboxfireworksdrivingfeeling lovedpreparing a meal for guestsbeing with my familybunniesspending time with youtha gentle breeze on a warm summer’s dayoreosa hughiking in God’s beautiful creation

The list goes on and on…

One lesson I have learned during my 21.45 years on this planet is that the little things are the most important…and the little things mean the most to me…even things as small as warm socks on cold feet…those are the things that really matter.

No Weather Channel

Forgot to mention the discovery I made yesterday…

There were very severe storms in the Midwest yesterday, so my mom mentioned that she was watching the Weather Channel. So, I thought that–since I had cable, and since we have every channel imaginable–I’d turn it on as well…

We don’t get the Weather Channel.

What’s up with that? That is an essential element of cable television! In the past few years, when I have had access to satellite or cable television, it has been one of the only channels I have used, as I like to know what the weather is going to be like, and I like to learn about meteorology.

Anyway, I cannot believe that we have 6 ESPN’s, 4 Discovery Channels, 3 HBO’s etc., and NO WEATHER CHANNEL! Ridiculous, LOL…

D.C., LA and other developments in my life…

The past 4 days were extremely difficult for me, for one reason or another…but one reason is this: Reminders of the East Coast were everywhere…Pennsylvania license plates appearing on more cars than usual…our “University Choir and Orchestra” (UCO) touring on the East Coast and spending 3 days in D.C. (and my friends calling me for advice on where they should go, where they should eat, etc.)…a family from church who left today for a week in D.C…a friend from church who is in New York City for a week…ETC…the list continues!

Yesterday I realized that I have to go back…I don’t know how I will be able to afford it, but I want to do whatever I can to fly to D.C. and Pennsylvania this summer, even if just for a weekend. I miss my “family” in Pennsylvania, and I wish that I could be there again this summer, ministering full-time, spending time with the youth, etc. But God has me in Los Angeles for some reason, and I will persevere–with a side trip hopefully, to where I really long to be.

But anyway…enough about that…

I had Mark and Jenn (our youth ministers) over for dinner on Friday night, and we had a wonderful time…I made my “creation”–yet to be named–and it was a hit! They were my first taste-testers other than myself!

I spent most of Saturday at Biola University–which is my school’s “arch-rival”. I woke up Saturday morning realizing that (1) I wanted out of my apartment and (2) I really wanted to see my dear ASP friends. So I spent the day with Lindsey and Alli, and got to be a part of Alli’s surprise graduation party–which I didn’t know about until she did! It was so awesome to spend time with these girls, one of whom was one of my roommates in D.C…these girls and I have shared so many experiences and memories…so many great conversations…and I will never forget them. Another ASP friend is in town for the week, and I hope to meet up with her on Thursday.

Things in my life continue to change and to go in directions that I never expected…life is hard right now, but I know that I’m not alone…God reminds me of His presence everyday, and also reminds me that He alone can see the “big picture” of why these things are happening. I know that I am growing and changing, and that process often is hard and painful.

Life is about risks…it is about loving your “neighbor” even when it hurts…but more importantly it is about following God wherever He may lead…and I’m willing to walk down that path with Him, no matter where it leads.

This weekend…

It is Friday…the sky is gray and foreboding–though after being in the Midwest I appreciate our “storms” much more!

I actually have company this weekend–though no roommates yet. I am having our youth pastors (a married couple who lives by me) over for dinner (I am making my culinary creation!!), which will be fun. Before that, I am hanging out with a dear friend who is leaving on Sunday for Spain, where she will be for 7 months. Monday evening my former roommate and friend Jessica will be stopping by for a visit, maybe even staying the night. Good times–finally! πŸ™‚ This being by myself thing is getting kinda old–though I am loving having a spotless apartment!

I haven’t decided what I am going to do on Saturday…I have no money, so that rules out shopping and stuff. Maybe I’ll hook up with some ASP friends.

After work I am going to venture over to IMT to see what they have done (or haven’t done) to my computer this time…hopefully I’ll have internet this weekend, but I’m not holding my breath.

Still no idea what I am going to sing on Sunday at church…been working on a Caedmon’s Call song–playing guitar for myself–but my arm has been having “spells” lately, so I don’t want to count on my ability to play guitar.

Sorry for the boring post! My life has consisted of work, cleaning, Seinfeld, talking to Michael and my parents, reading…that’s it. Nothing exciting yet!

Have a great weekend!!

“The Real World”

When I decided to be “on my own” this summer, I was so excited about the prospect of working, paying the bills, being completely “independent”, etc. Well, I have now officially been “in the real world” for one week, and I’m not so sure about this! I sat down last night to make a budget…realized that for the first month of being on my own things are going to be incredibly tight…at least my income is more than my expenses, so I will be able to save money, after the first month.

I feel like an adult now…living in my own apartment…paying my own rent/utilities, etc…but I also am realizing the burdens and stresses that adults face…Don’t get me wrong–I am loving this more than I thought I would, but I am just gaining a greater appreciation for my parents and all they have done for my brother and I.

The real world can be a rather cold and uninviting place, but thankfully the Lord has blessed me with a wonderful family, great friends, and a loving church to help me adjust to the changes that are coming my way. I don’t feel alone by any means…except when I’m in my apartment with NO INTERNET!! (IMT STILL HAS MY COMPUTER!) But anyway, yeah.

Life is good…