Tag: Being Uncomfortable

Looking Back at 2008…

This has probably been the most crazy year of my life thus far. It has been filled with trials and challenges, but also with joy and growth…I’m 26 years old today–and I’m now closer to 30 than 20. Such a strange thought! I don’t feel like I could possibly be nearly 30, but I guess that’s a good thing. πŸ™‚

In December 2007, I began praying that God would make me “uncomfortable.” I realized that I was not growing in my faith because I was comfortable where I was in life…when you look at the example of any biblical character, they grew the most when God challenged them and presented new situations to them. So, I began to pray that He would do the same with me. And He did not disappoint. The most obvious example of that is that I now live in Pennsylvania, where I’m experiencing my first “real Winter”. πŸ™‚ The growth that has occurred this year is remarkable, and I can’t wait to see where I am at this time next year! I have learned that being comfortable is overrated–and boring, actually. πŸ™‚

In 2008:

I attended the “Passion” conference in L.A., by myself, and was forever changed by that event…I was given an opportunity to teach in Dubai for the 2008-2009 school year…I had to quit my job at ADP because they changed their mind about giving me time off to lead my mission team to New Orleans…I decided to move to Pennsylvania without a job, trusting the Lord in His guidance…I spent six days driving across the United States with my Mom (and saw things like the Grand Canyon, Painted Desert, and other things in the nine states we drove through)…I went to seven new states this year, bringing the total to 31…I had pneumonia for 13 weeks…I spent an amazing month in New Orleans, serving the Lord and serving others…I took about 15,000 pictures…I spent 5 months unemployed and watched the Lord provide for me in miraculous ways…I now have an incredible job with a growing lobbying firm, where I can finally use my degree and my passions…I got in my first car accident, and had to buy a new car…I learned a valuable lesson about friendships–it’s okay to let some go, because some people are “toxic” to our lives…I drove in snow for the first time…I’ve lost some friends and gained new ones, and my life has been so blessed by my new friends in Pennsylvania…I’ve learned that it’s okay to accept help from others…I found a new church here in PA that is healthy, missions-focused, and I’m ready to dive in and serve…

2009 is going to be an interesting year, that’s for sure. Two of my good friends and I decided to give up ice cream (defined as anything that is “frozen dairy”) for a year. It will most definitely be the hardest thing I’ve given up! However, it will be a constant reminder that I’m trying to be even more healthy when it comes to food than I already am, and I am going to succeed this year in losing the weight I gained while I had pneumonia. πŸ™‚ So, I’m eating a lot of ice cream today! If the Moravian shoe thing I tried (see prior posts) is accurate (Ha!), then I’ll be engaged by next Christmas. Not counting on that, but I wouldn’t mind! πŸ™‚

Most of all, I’m excited to see what the Lord is going to do in my life and in the lives of those around me. He called me here to Central Pennsylvania for a reason, and I’m excited to see what He has in store! πŸ™‚

And the adjusting begins…

Today marked my fourth full day as a Pennsylvania resident…the fourth day that I have lived here, slept here, hung out with friends here, started a new life here.Β Yesterday, I finally began hanging things on my walls, which made this feel real for the first time. Today, I went to church at a church I have always admired and appreciated, but left realizing that I will never find a worship team like the one I had in Glendora. It’s the little things that are starting to hit me…the little things that are making this real.

Every day I have to remind myself that I actually live here–it still feels like a dream, since it’s something that I have wanted for so long. And I’m so glad to be here! But, I do miss the people in Glendora…the worship team…the comfort.

And that’s what it all comes down to, I think: comfort. I lived in Azusa/Glendora for seven years, and it became comfortable. I was content in many ways. However, last December I began to pray that God would take that comfort away so that I could grow, so that I could continue to become more like Jesus. I haven’t regretted that prayer for one second.Β It hasn’t been an easy eight months, but it has been so worthwhile! Look at where the Lord has led me!

I know that the Lord has incredible things in store for me here–and I am ready for the challenges that I will face. Just knowing that His hand clearly led me here is enough to give me the peace to face tomorrow–even though I’m quite uncomfortable right now. πŸ™‚

PS–I have an interview tomorrow morning–please pray that all goes well, and that I get the job, even though it’s just part-time, and it’s not something I’d keep for long. I have bills to pay πŸ™‚

So much to ponder…

The Lord has truly responded to my prayer to be “uncomfortable”, and He’s using so many different books/experiences/people to challenge me!

It started in January, with our “M3” training day for all APU mission team leaders…I walked away that day with a fresh perspective on the Lord’s call on my life (missions), as well as some new things to ponder…and I’m still pondering them…

The weekend after that was “Passion”…again, challenging stuff presented there…still trying to work through it all, deciding how to apply it to my life…

Currently, I’m reading “The Irresistible Revolution” by Shane Claiborne…wow…talk about humbling…and challenging…

Then, there was the retreat this weekend, for all the APU mission teams (pictures can be found here, here, and here–there are three albums, LOL)…amazing time getting to know my team–as well as other leaders…but there were also some really challenging times–seeing the world in new ways…and I am not the same after this weekend.

I am loving this journey, this time of being “uncomfortable”…and I know that there is more to come! Praise the Lord! I am so excited about growing, learning, and becoming continually more like Jesus…

I’ll try to blog about more specific things that happened this weekend at some point…I think I’m getting sick (sore throat right now), so I’d better just rest…

God is so good… πŸ™‚