Internal Dialogue

Those who know me know that I tend to think about things in depth and for a long time. I love to “ponder” ideas–hence the name of my blog. 

Today, as I answered phones and filed documents at my temp assignment, I began to have what I call an internal dialogue about my current status in life. I really don’t like to answer phones, and I’m bored with being a temp…but, I need money to pay rent and buy food, so I told myself that I can’t complain. I don’t feel that I’m “above” any task or position (after all, Jesus–the Creator of the Universe– was a carpenter and He washed His disciples’ feet…I can answer a few phone calls!)–but at the same time, I have a bachelor’s degree. And why did I go to college to earn my bachelor’s degree? To get a better job…a job that I love and that suits me well, a job where I can serve others and make a difference in the lives of others. 

But what is it that I want to do with the rest of my life? What “job” will satisfy me? That’s where I’m stuck. I have an awesome opportunity to start fresh, to find something I am passionate about–a job where I am challenged, but also where my skills and talents are utilized…but what will that be? What on earth do I want to do? 

In the meantime, I take whatever assignments I can get from the temp agency, and I’m very grateful! If nothing else, this time of my life has been humbling and thought provoking…now if I could only figure out what I want to do next… 🙂

PS–Great article by Michael Reagan (son of President Ronald Reagan) about Sarah Palin.